Older, but no wiser

It’s session three of counselling this afternoon. I started this as a means of exploring the conflict I felt between the “me” it seems I need to be to do my job, and the “me” I know I am, but that gets locked away in a drawer somewhere. This week has had some extraordinarily powerful – and scary – surfacing of emotions that had stayed tucked out of sight for so long, but whose release was begun in the last session. Opening myself to my own feelings can yield truly unexpected results… so I wonder, with more than a little apprehension, just where this afternoon will lead…